Musings about self

Foreword: This piece of text is not born as a blog. Its purpose was different. But i think it shud end up here..

I am not certain how to explain myself in a way for you to "get it rite"!!
I am interested in philosophy recently!. and they say 'I' am nothing but 2.5 pounds of organic tissue wch manifests the phenomenon called self consciousness when its being activated by electrical impulses, wch wil always try to sustain, preserve and propagate itself!. and it wil stop wen those impulses faces a power loss! It was a huge load of crap i admit.

'I' is a fluid concept[for me only,am not generalizing anything]. I change. I am not static.
So the answer mostly depends on when and where I am trying to giv u an idea of myself!
But I cant change this piece of text every moment to get it accurate in all the sense!
Wat I can do now is to say sumthing abstract abt me wch is true most of the times,
I desperately need to kill this boredom and to divert my mind from wandering into the thots i am most scared of..
Thts gives enuf motivation for me to write this

Some of u may think tht u r paranoid. But u r not paranoid enuf to believe tht u can get to know this person well..frm this bullshit i hav wrote down here!
How can u be certain tht i am not lying !.. For myself I am an optimist - it does not seem to be much use being anything else. Hopes everything happens for the greater good..

I know now this is the the middle of nowhrere but..
wow it helped.. i feel peace.. so the purpose is lost.. i am stopping here