1: dude u r drunk.. its 4 A M..u are up in ur bed after a blackout..and u r wondering abt the wonders of the universe again!.. ooh yeah.. now i get it..This is wat they call as the moment of clarity. wow...cool, i like this feeling!
2:I think i am awake...I seem to like randomness now.Earlier I tried to control it..It was good..It was less funny..Somebody said that its all freaking random and uncertain in a subatomic level...so I thot.. wat the hell. Even god intend it to be so. who am i to change it.. So i put my winamp in shuffle with a repeat. jim morrison is singing again for me.. his ghost song.. i like his voice.. i like his words.. but.. fans forgive me.. he was just another lost soul who failed to realise the confusion within.. Seeking a shortcut to open the doors of perception by making a "bet with the mind" . I gus it wont work tht way.
3:Wat am i doing.. yeah waiting for the sun. i know thr wil be light after an hour..i can capture the magic of sunrise again..click some snaps of it.. everything wil be beautiful again..1 hour more.. I wish if everything was certain like tht always..everything was straightforward... again the answer is, wat the hell?... I like my thots.. they are freakin funny sumtimes.. atleast for me.. and sometimes they absolutely wont make any sense at all.. then it gets funnier.. wat the hell... u may hav no idea of wat i am talkin abt.. so never mind..
4:Its full of surprises u knw.. most of the times u may not find the liferaft where u believe u left it.. and wen u turn around u may find a brant new one..but wat if u r too broke to make the payment!.. it is funny if u can find the fun in it..its so surprising that i am afraid sometime it wil fail to surprise me again.. i am scared of that.. because no surprises means end of hope.. it wil all get back to boring and sad!..
am i dreaming..i seriously doubt am falling asleep.. wow thw insomnia is gone
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Musings about self
Foreword: This piece of text is not born as a blog. Its purpose was different. But i think it shud end up here..
I am not certain how to explain myself in a way for you to "get it rite"!!
I am interested in philosophy recently!. and they say 'I' am nothing but 2.5 pounds of organic tissue wch manifests the phenomenon called self consciousness when its being activated by electrical impulses, wch wil always try to sustain, preserve and propagate itself!. and it wil stop wen those impulses faces a power loss! It was a huge load of crap i admit.
'I' is a fluid concept[for me only,am not generalizing anything]. I change. I am not static.
So the answer mostly depends on when and where I am trying to giv u an idea of myself!
But I cant change this piece of text every moment to get it accurate in all the sense!
Wat I can do now is to say sumthing abstract abt me wch is true most of the times,
I desperately need to kill this boredom and to divert my mind from wandering into the thots i am most scared of..
Thts gives enuf motivation for me to write this
Some of u may think tht u r paranoid. But u r not paranoid enuf to believe tht u can get to know this person well..frm this bullshit i hav wrote down here!
How can u be certain tht i am not lying !.. For myself I am an optimist - it does not seem to be much use being anything else. Hopes everything happens for the greater good..
I know now this is the the middle of nowhrere but..
wow it helped.. i feel peace.. so the purpose is lost.. i am stopping here
I am not certain how to explain myself in a way for you to "get it rite"!!
I am interested in philosophy recently!. and they say 'I' am nothing but 2.5 pounds of organic tissue wch manifests the phenomenon called self consciousness when its being activated by electrical impulses, wch wil always try to sustain, preserve and propagate itself!. and it wil stop wen those impulses faces a power loss! It was a huge load of crap i admit.
'I' is a fluid concept[for me only,am not generalizing anything]. I change. I am not static.
So the answer mostly depends on when and where I am trying to giv u an idea of myself!
But I cant change this piece of text every moment to get it accurate in all the sense!
Wat I can do now is to say sumthing abstract abt me wch is true most of the times,
I desperately need to kill this boredom and to divert my mind from wandering into the thots i am most scared of..
Thts gives enuf motivation for me to write this
Some of u may think tht u r paranoid. But u r not paranoid enuf to believe tht u can get to know this person well..frm this bullshit i hav wrote down here!
How can u be certain tht i am not lying !.. For myself I am an optimist - it does not seem to be much use being anything else. Hopes everything happens for the greater good..
I know now this is the the middle of nowhrere but..
wow it helped.. i feel peace.. so the purpose is lost.. i am stopping here
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