Wednesday, November 28, 2007

The dude wants to be happy!



The Big Lebowsky used to call himself the dude. But sadly he was’t the last. For the ones amongst you who are having no idea who Big Lebowsky is, you can very well find him in http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Big_Lebowski . For me he is just the dude! Now I am glad that I got a rare opportunity to introduce to the world the next one who called himself ‘The Dude’.

"I am glad that you are loving it. I am glad that you are happy. I know that you look for the signs on the way whilst you keep rolling, believing that you can trust them. But I feel sorry for you that you have absolutely no idea where you are headed. I don’t know if I should keep myself quiet like you do, find peace in the comfortable silences and abstain myself from the uncomfortable thoughts…or realizations! I see a paradox here. How the hell do I know if I am not in a cage like you are? An invisible one of blissful ignorance and well-being. infact i am pretty much sure that I am in one right now. Where will it land me now! Will that knowledge make me free from it? I don’t know. Who am I asking to? Whom should I ask to? Kind of funny and sad huh! "

So on that fine day our dude sat on the chair which can rotate and can stretch backwards, intrigued by thoughts like the above mentioned ones. Little did he know that his life is going to change. That day he made a life changing decision without even knowing about it. Yep! he did make a life changing decision not to change his life at all! He knew that there were people before, who knew what he thought now he knew. Most of em either committed suicide by 27 or became addicts or became insanely rich and other people started calling their dwellings CRIBS! He consciously ignored the fact that there may be losers among them. The dude is positive and he likes beer. They did see what was coming, but they managed to stand up and say a big 'FISH YOU' to the so-called fate. Because they knew it was full of bullshit. “One should change whatever once can change and accept whatever one cant and stop mumbling victim of this and that.” The Dude was on fire!

After all the question is whether they are happy or not. Obviously we can’t ask the dead or insane ones. And the ones who got themselves into the 'mile high' club where indeed happy. Well what a question, any living thing with the minimum sense of self-awareness will be happy if they get to sip a 60 year old Macallan served by females which the kingfisher king would go crazy for. Relaxing in thr personal three-rotor custom antique style six seater spitfires at thirty sever thousand feet. Obviously if they cant be happy then, they are the big fat losers of the world. And may be most of em are.. The dude supposed!

And the dead ones, and the 'flew off - cud't land back' ones. “They too are happy;” the dude was ready to bet. The singer dude who put a shotgun to his chest in a moment of creativity or despair, seem to have hated his wife. He may be happy that he is somewhere she can’t chase him. Even his suicide note became famous "I'd rather burn down than fade away". Wola! “He’d have lost a hell lot of popularity if he lived and wrote more! Coz his songs were mostly bullshit. So it was one of the wisest decisions he ever made”. The dude said to himself!

Another guy drank his way to death. But the reason doesn’t seem to be the obvious one- a Love Failure! But in a sense yeah, he might have lost the love for his life. Or may be he succeeded in finding what he was searching for, and may be what he saw in the other side of the Door was ugly, against what he believed in..An end to his hope, something that kept him going. People say he died listening to his own song 'The end’. He ought to be happy.. “Lucky lunatic”… The dude was jealous.



Another guy was so complicated that no one understood him much. But people knew there is something special about him and they loved him for that. Sadly the lad fell victim for his own creativity. His extraordinary imaginative mind went adrift and he began to imagine people and slipped into a world of his own, where everyone was created by him and acted sane -according to him! But back in the real world people missed him. And the real world put a beautiful name for his disease- Schizophrenia. His Friends wished if here were there with em and wrote songs crying out loud 'shine on u crazy diamond’ and they became filthy rich again. It’s a beautiful song though. There is no way to be sure if he was happy when he died. There is a price for everything including creativity you know. Insanity/Alienation and mostly they wont be ‘socially’ that good. “He paid dearly I gus!”. The dude felt sadness like a rain!



Well who are these guys!.. Well I am quite sure that these are some of the guys our dude looked at, with an awe at different points of his life.. And our dude kept on wondering why did they do what all they did. Dude believes in freedom of speaking his mind. Whatever.. That’s not the point here.. The point is ...to be able to being happy. The dudes happiness and pleasure in living life to the fullest at the moment with his favorite thoughts were temporarily devastated by the introduction of the new, so called 'issue log' by the clients. Man those guys got some serious issues. Else why do they do this to shatter our dudes peace of mind... These guys should learn that interrupting a line of thought is a heinous crime!! The dude’s lead is angry. The dude felt strangled!

But our dude was determined this day. He said another ‘FISH YOU’ and went ahead with his thoughts and the other things!. He is sad that some one flicked his nice chair, which can rotate and can stretch backwards and placed a broken one in its place, which doesn’t stretch backwards! He decided to forgive the one who did that. It was funny and, u know wat else is funny? It is that you don’t have to be rich to be happy... a broke dude who finds a 500 Rs bill in his used trouser pocket is the happiest man in the world for a while. So is the one who can laugh at her concern when the chic at the park asks him to ‘get a life’, and dare to publicize entire incident through his blog! [Hats off to u dude!]... Happy were the dudes who argued for hours on whether wax can be burned and used instead of petrol for no apparent reasons!... Happy are the ones who can eat laugh and forget that they are totally screwed. Happy are the ones who felt that they reached the top of humanly possible when they proved that the chicken indeed come before the egg..

They proved that happiness is not too tough to attain. A triple distilled Russian rice extract with some ice will definitely help. Well it helped them all… as it always did..


The dude loves his friends. The dude is happy. The dude believes in god..

The dude is hungry now. The dude needs to go. The dude is missing!





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Sunday, July 1, 2007

Random Thots

1: dude u r drunk.. its 4 A M..u are up in ur bed after a blackout..and u r wondering abt the wonders of the universe again!.. ooh yeah.. now i get it..This is wat they call as the moment of clarity. wow...cool, i like this feeling!

2:I think i am awake...I seem to like randomness now.Earlier I tried to control it..It was good..It was less funny..Somebody said that its all freaking random and uncertain in a subatomic level...so I thot.. wat the hell. Even god intend it to be so. who am i to change it.. So i put my winamp in shuffle with a repeat. jim morrison is singing again for me.. his ghost song.. i like his voice.. i like his words.. but.. fans forgive me.. he was just another lost soul who failed to realise the confusion within.. Seeking a shortcut to open the doors of perception by making a "bet with the mind" . I gus it wont work tht way.

3:Wat am i doing.. yeah waiting for the sun. i know thr wil be light after an hour..i can capture the magic of sunrise again..click some snaps of it.. everything wil be beautiful again..1 hour more.. I wish if everything was certain like tht always..everything was straightforward... again the answer is, wat the hell?... I like my thots.. they are freakin funny sumtimes.. atleast for me.. and sometimes they absolutely wont make any sense at all.. then it gets funnier.. wat the hell... u may hav no idea of wat i am talkin abt.. so never mind..

4:Its full of surprises u knw.. most of the times u may not find the liferaft where u believe u left it.. and wen u turn around u may find a brant new one..but wat if u r too broke to make the payment!.. it is funny if u can find the fun in it..its so surprising that i am afraid sometime it wil fail to surprise me again.. i am scared of that.. because no surprises means end of hope.. it wil all get back to boring and sad!..

am i dreaming..i seriously doubt am falling asleep.. wow thw insomnia is gone

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Musings about self

Foreword: This piece of text is not born as a blog. Its purpose was different. But i think it shud end up here..

I am not certain how to explain myself in a way for you to "get it rite"!!

I am interested in philosophy recently!. and they say 'I' am nothing but 2.5 pounds of organic tissue wch manifests the phenomenon called self consciousness when its being activated by electrical impulses, wch wil always try to sustain, preserve and propagate itself!. and it wil stop wen those impulses faces a power loss! It was a huge load of crap i admit.

'I' is a fluid concept[for me only,am not generalizing anything]. I change. I am not static.
So the answer mostly depends on when and where I am trying to giv u an idea of myself!
But I cant change this piece of text every moment to get it accurate in all the sense!
Wat I can do now is to say sumthing abstract abt me wch is true most of the times,
I desperately need to kill this boredom and to divert my mind from wandering into the thots i am most scared of..
Thts gives enuf motivation for me to write this

Some of u may think tht u r paranoid. But u r not paranoid enuf to believe tht u can get to know this person well..frm this bullshit i hav wrote down here!
How can u be certain tht i am not lying !.. For myself I am an optimist - it does not seem to be much use being anything else. Hopes everything happens for the greater good..

I know now this is the the middle of nowhrere but..
wow it helped.. i feel peace.. so the purpose is lost.. i am stopping here